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A letter to Joseph at 1 year old

A letter to Joseph at 1 year old

Dear Joseph, One whole year I’ve known you. One whole year of cuddles, bottles, nappy changes and happiness. You bring me more joy than I ever thought was possible and I’m so proud to call you my son. My baby boy, now you are a toddler, and while I’m so excited for this next stage and watching you grow into a little boy, part of me wants you to stay tiny for just a little bit longer. You are fast…

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Moving on from birth trauma

Moving on from birth trauma

A few weeks ago I finally had my much anticipated/dreaded debrief. As I covered in a previous post, it was ridiculously difficult to even get this booked. As the date loomed, I could feel a lot of my old emotions around the birth coming back and I started to sleep badly again. I would get into bed and struggle to fall asleep, just going over the birth again and again. Months ago I used to get this visual of the…

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Goodbye Sleepyhead!

Goodbye Sleepyhead!

As I’ve said before, I’m a massive fan of the Sleepyhead, and we’ve used it for Joseph since the day we got back from hospital. I swear it was a combination of that and Ewan the Dream Sheep that made him sleep so well the first few months. We have used both the Deluxe and Grande Sleepyheads, which we were lucky enough to borrow from family. However, with Joseph’s first day at nursery looming, I knew we were going to…

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Reflecting on the past few months

Reflecting on the past few months

It’s been quite a while since my last blog post and I’m not really sure why. I’ve been going through some funny phases recently and just felt I didn’t have anything interesting to say (no change now really), plus I’d kind of fallen out of love with Instagram for some reason. But something as momentous as a New Year deserves a blog post. Quite a lot has happened over the past few months, and I’ll do my best to remember…

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Advice I would give myself

Advice I would give myself

Now that I’ve finally started to be able to talk and think clearly about the birth, I’ve been reflecting a lot about those hazy, early days of motherhood. Looking at the above picture makes me quite sad – it was the day we finally left hospital and I had no idea what was coming. In that moment I was scared but I was excited about going home with our precious baby. I didn’t know that the minute I stepped outside…

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A letter to Joseph at 6 months old 

A letter to Joseph at 6 months old 

Dear Joseph, You are now 6 months old and I can’t believe it! You are such a lovely, happy boy and I just love seeing your little personality start to appear. The past few months have been intense. We’ve had teething, your first flight and trip away, first food, rolling over and sitting! Not to mention the adorable babbling and raspberry blowing you are now constantly doing! The current favourites are ‘da da dada’, ‘ubursssch’ ‘gahgah’.  Just when I think…

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Joseph’s first trip

Joseph’s first trip

A couple of weeks ago we all flew up to Glasgow to spend the weekend at my mum’s house. I was really looking forward to it, but was dreading the flight for obvious reasons! I used to be cabin crew and so I love flying usually, but add a baby to the mix and it’s a whole different ball game! Packing for the trip was unbelievably stressful and I was shocked to find we’d basically packed everything apart from the…

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Counselling for Post Natal PTSD/Birth Trauma

Counselling for Post Natal PTSD/Birth Trauma

I’ve spoken before about my feelings about what happened at Joseph’s birth and how it left me traumatised. It was a long road to getting help, but I have just completed my 10th and final CBT session and I’m so happy to report that I now feel totally different about the birth. I actually can’t believe I can sit here and say this, when only a matter of weeks ago I couldn’t tell anyone about the birth without crying. As…

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Where has my little baby gone? 

Where has my little baby gone? 

It’s such a cliché, but time with a baby really does go fast. Everyone tells you it does, but you don’t really understand until it happens to you. The past 5 months have been the quickest ones of my life and I’ve found myself getting more than a little nostalgic recently. I’ve recently and finally felt able to look at all the pictures of us in hospital after Joseph was born, and I’m stunned that he was so small and…

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Who am I now? 

Who am I now? 

Before I had Joseph I knew I would change, but I didn’t quite grasp just how I would lose my identity and gain a new, unfamiliar one. It’s been a struggle adjusting to being this new person, and to be honest a lot of the time I feel a bit detached from things, like I’m on autopilot. That could be down to how I feel about the birth, but could just be down to being a new mum. Looking back…

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