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Moving on from birth trauma

Moving on from birth trauma

A few weeks ago I finally had my much anticipated/dreaded debrief. As I covered in a previous post, it was ridiculously difficult to even get this booked. As the date loomed, I could feel a lot of my old emotions around the birth coming back and I started to sleep badly again. I would get into bed and struggle to fall asleep, just going over the birth again and again. Months ago I used to get this visual of the…

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Reflecting on the past few months

Reflecting on the past few months

It’s been quite a while since my last blog post and I’m not really sure why. I’ve been going through some funny phases recently and just felt I didn’t have anything interesting to say (no change now really), plus I’d kind of fallen out of love with Instagram for some reason. But something as momentous as a New Year deserves a blog post. Quite a lot has happened over the past few months, and I’ll do my best to remember…

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Advice I would give myself

Advice I would give myself

Now that I’ve finally started to be able to talk and think clearly about the birth, I’ve been reflecting a lot about those hazy, early days of motherhood. Looking at the above picture makes me quite sad – it was the day we finally left hospital and I had no idea what was coming. In that moment I was scared but I was excited about going home with our precious baby. I didn’t know that the minute I stepped outside…

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Counselling for Post Natal PTSD/Birth Trauma

Counselling for Post Natal PTSD/Birth Trauma

I’ve spoken before about my feelings about what happened at Joseph’s birth and how it left me traumatised. It was a long road to getting help, but I have just completed my 10th and final CBT session and I’m so happy to report that I now feel totally different about the birth. I actually can’t believe I can sit here and say this, when only a matter of weeks ago I couldn’t tell anyone about the birth without crying. As…

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When sadness turns to angerĀ 

When sadness turns to angerĀ 

From the moment I got out of hospital after giving birth, I’ve felt so much sadness about everything that happened there. This sadness has been with me every day and is crippling at times. However, recently I’ve become aware of a change in how I am viewing what happened during Joseph’s birth and I only realised it the other day when I was having a therapy session. I’ve been having CBT for the past 6 weeks and I’m finally starting…

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